Unpredictable

I had a good time tonight....went to my uncle's house for this some sort of family gathering. This is the only time where you see unfamiliar faces appearing and the next minute you just realised that you are related. What a small world. Met a lot of uncle's and aunties that I've never seen in my entire life but the most important part is that I had a good time playing with my niece...she's only 13 months old and just began to learn to walk on monday. eventhough she fell several times but she never cry, she'll just get up and try to walk again...such a nice and adorable girl. I carried her around for quite a while then my hand felt so weak, no more energy. My sister asked me how am I going to carry my child next time since my hand felt so weak just after carrying her for about half and hour...and talking about kids, I need to speed up and find a boyfriend. Boyfriend also don't have...what more to say kids. Oh ya, guess what even felicia also boyfriend now...can you imagine, the most kuai, innocent, naive and whatever words you wanna use to describe has a boyfriend now!!!! Oh gosh....i really need to speed up...haha..I think sometimes the people that you think are innocent will actually have bf first. for example Magdelene, she's married and now she's pregnant. I never thought that she'll be among the first ones to get married in audrey che's group of friends...things are unpredictable...don't you think so???? Anyway, I followed my uncle and my mum to Sarawak Biodiversity today for a meeting with the CEO cos he's planning to come back. It was a very fruitful visit to that place...I've learnt a lot. After that, we went for lunch then to Bank Bumiputera Commerce to open a new account for me cos Monash only has that bank's ATM machine in the campus. I quarrelled with the ppl there cos they treated me so unfairly. Stupid bank....if it's not b'cos monash has no other ATM machine other than theirs, I would not have step my foot into that bank.

Homeless

I'm desperate for a room in sunway....somebody please help me out....the hostel at the university are FULL and the waiting list is so so so long...I am indeed worried bout it but what can I do? I've called all my friends that are staying somewhere there to help me look out for an accomodation there and bare in mind most of them are back in their hometown for holiday...why can't you just understand instead of blaming me for not being concerned????!!!!!AHH....i'm just so sick of it that I raised my voice a lilttle just now. I'm starting on a new book now although i still need to finish off my book on holy spirit before i get back to KL...but Memoirs of a geisha seems much more interesting than that book.

a new beginning....

Time flies and now we are moving on to 2006!!! I think 2005 was incredibly fast...it's like it seems just yesterday when I leave to KL and ta da...it's finished. 2005 was a year with whole load of new experinces and new stuff...first I was staying with 6 other ppl I don't know and I tell you, staying with others was really an experince...you got to have lots of patience..everyone has their own attitude and character at times you might get pretty annoyed but what can you do?? But, there are times when we had fun esp during birthdays and on tuesday when everyone just sit on the couch at 10.30 and watch desperate housewife. Then I have friends in school...huiru and adeline, they are really nice ppl....they make me feel so much at home during my first week of class. They helped me with my schoolwork and huiru is just an adorable kid. She's so sweet!!! Adeline is a really smart girl and she really encourages me whenever I was down. Thanks dear. Moving on to church. Thank God I met Gillian and she brought me to Acts and Campuscity, if not, I would have missed out so much. I have a wonderful PG and great PG leaders. The determinaion in Vionita just encourages me how she struggle in order to stand firm and be a christian really touch my heart...but sadly she got to go back to Indonesia. However, Boon Wei equally good too. Campuscity....the place where i really learn so much. GIG's has really open my eyes of what God can do...nothing really is impossible for him. At times, I missed church back there but last week's service in Good News was not bad...I feel quite comfortable with their worship hopefully I'll learn in this church. Last year, I was able to spend New Year's eve with my friends...that's a new thing cos usually I'll follow my parents to parties and countdown with them, but it was different last year...although it wasn't like what I wanted but I had a great time with my friends. Uncle James will be back for Chinese New Year...at last there will be more ppl during CNY's eve dinner...I hope that it won't turn into a disaster cos grandma sure will ask him to move back to Kuching and obviously that's not his intention, and with his new China girlfriend...I really really hope that things will turn out fine between uncle james and granny. Don't ruin my new year please....

Christmas!!

5 more days to christmas!!! I've always believed that Christmas is a time to love and give...i really like the culture in overseas where everyone is busy doing their christmas shopping now and busy buying gifts for almost everyone that they know..but why is it so different here?? Anyway, as usual I get my christmas present from my god-mother the earliest..she never fail to get me present. Apart from that, there's no present under the christmas tree for me at all..how sad. Anyway, I got mail from Acts church updating on the christmas production...so sad that I have to miss all of it...all of them must be busy prpeparing for it...decorating, rehearsal and many many stuff to do...i miss church...although extension center is definitely more lively than cathedral but it's just different..the praise and worship is so different. I can't seem to get connected. I feel that my growth has stop ever since i came back here...maybe i need to go back to Good News or something.

Goodbye

I guess today will be the last day I'm going to meet my classmates...we went to genting for our class trip this morning. It was a great day..we had so much fun together. I haven't had so much fun for quite a while and it really is great. Thanks for changing the date so that I'll be able to make it.I was suppose to go for prayer meeting at 8 pm so if i use the bus down from genting at 6.30 i'll be able to make it in time..and guess what, we missed the bus, we were only 5 mins late and the bus has left us..so sad..then thought of catching the 7 pm bus but due to the jam in KL the bus couldn't make it in time. Luckily the girl at the counter was kind and she asked us to take another bus which leaves at 7.15 to Gombak instead of KL central.The journey was long and a bit troublesome but adeline, huiru and I had fun. Thanks for accompanying me. I manage to go for prayer meeting and it was great. This will be the last time I'm going to have meeting in Acts Church. I dunno whether I'm coming back or not next year, but this year has trully been a fruitful year. I've grown spiritually. I'll miss those time that we had during PG and supper. Anyway, I just started packing just now after I came back home from supper. I thought I'll be able to fit in my stuff into my bags but it turn out that I had so many things to bring. I haven't even finish packing but i have to move out tomorrow. hAi ya...

O.C

I've finish watching O.C season 1 and 2 and I'm waiting for season 3..it's so slow to download them...arghh...can't it jus move a lil faster??? GUess what time i selpt last night? I slept at 8 a.m. last night. Yeah..your influnce is really strong on me..hehe..remember to bring back Dawson's Creek ya. If not I'll die of boredom during my holidays at home. Su ann left today..it's so sad...one year has just past by and I dunno when will we meet again. No one will update the songs in my laptop anymore...no one will teach me computer stuff if I can't get it..I'll miss you guys..however, some might be exceptional. It's quite sad that you think you're close with someone but in actual fact, that person dosen't even feel close to you and wants you to be out of her life as soon as possible. I'm just so sick that at times, she just don't use her brain before she talk and don't even bother about other ppl's feelings. Twist and turn your own statement in order to win when the fact is you're SO wrong. Get a life man. I'm so sick of all these..having to put up with you the whole year. Staying with you for another year is going to be a big NO NO. So now you're uncomfortable when you have guys staying around your house? So how bout me? Have you ever thought of that? I have to get out of my room whenever you bring your bf back and have him sleeping over at our place and I had to sleep in dorin's room?? Think bout that before you say anything. Last time when I asked you to sleep over at their room cos Vionita is here you gave me whole bunch of bullshit and now you're happily asking me to sleep in their room so that you can 'make out' with your bf??? Get a life man. So what's the big deal that you have a bf now? So what if he has a car? My life is not crippled...so don't start to boast bout it. In case you don't realise...the whole house don't even like you!!! So wake up!!!!

Phases of life

Looking back at my life and I realise that I've grown..starting from kindergarden, I was like the happy-go-lucky young little child who plays robots, guns and running around with my cousins..i never played with barbie dolls..maybe b'cos I had too many guy cousins and that time all of them were still here before moving to Penang..then moved on to primary school..my primary school days is always under the sun where I did so much sports that I was baely in class. I have long jump training everyday during recess in the field when I was in Pri 3 &4 then was running at the track field everyday during recess when I was Pri 5 & 6. Then badminton training in the evening from 4.30-7.30 on Mon,wed, fri and sat. By God's grace I was able to pull through my UPSR and get quite a good result. When I was in secondary school..i got a shocked of my life..everything was so different. From a co-ed school to a single sex school..why did i chose St. Mary's instead of Kuching High?? If I'm in Kuching High then I guess I would be a good badminton player by now and flung my studies. I still remember on the first day to sch we went to see Mrs. Wong and she put me into 1.2 instead of 1.1 which my results qualifies me b'cos she was afriad that I can't cope with BM seeing that I'm from a chinese sch. I don't know everybody there and the only person I know was Sherlyn. Thanks to Sunday School...since then life began to change. esp when I moved to 1.1, I've got phone calls from Felicia almost every night and she'll be telling me when I did wrong that day, like I shouldn't have said this and that cos I've hurt who ever's feelings...oh God..I was like what's the matter with those girls?? Get a life man...well, eventually I moved on then I got letters from Sharon Chong...weird letters..in form 2 and 3 I've skipped quite a fair bit of classes..there's this time Pn. Kadariah (i think) caught me playing basketball during her moral class and I was late for her class. I love those time when we were in form 3, hanging out with jaq,ping, adrine, shah, sherlyn and i...we almost had to see the counselling teacher when Nuraini went to see her...haha..Form 4, it was one of the year that I like...life was quite easy,nothing much...i hang out with sherlyn most of the time..and guess what, ppl started to think that we are lesbians..even the teachers..can you imagine that?? Oh no...I know that we're close but definately NOT lesbians..then Form 5, it was quite a boring year..nothing much except the SPiderMan Movie thing by Interact Club, we spend most of our time in the office calling and stuff...the teachers never helped us in anything...and that's the end of my secondary school year...I wonder why I was never active in sports in sec sch?? Moving on to college...it's totally different...having to leave with 6 other girls that I don't even know and had to put up with 6 different attitudes...there are times that we just really don't see eye to eye with things and I realised that my mum is the one that I talked to mostly nowadays...to stay with others really needs a high level of patience...and now it's all coming to an end...I dunno what lies ahead of me...but I know that God holds my future and in him I can take refuge. Sometimes when I look back, some stuff seems so silly but yet at that time it seems so big...it's really funny...I would love to go back and read those letters and notes that I used to exchange, memories of those good and bad times I had. Thanks friends for leaving footprints in my life. The memories that we all had together will always be cherished.

End of season

It's the end of season for my chapter of life here...i felt it esp today. It was at worship practice during campuscity, God's presence was so awesome...and i just teared...God has been so great and wonderful through it all. I have grown so much since I came here...when i first came, I was a stagnant christian. Going to church and ISCF has become more of a routine rather than a time of breakthorugh, a time of worship where I can enter into His presence and have another encounter with HIm. I still remember, Sherlyn said that she wanted me to draw closer to God before she leave..it was when I was in form 4...thanks che. Looking back at where I was and now, I have grown t another level of faith. There's much more to come!! Amen!! I really am grateful for ppl like pastor ryan, pastor kenneth, vionita, wee vien, and calvin. Their faith has just impacted my life so much. After this what's next?? What's the next chapter that God has planned for me. It just reminded me of Jeremiah 1:5 , even before I form you in your mother's womb, I knew you. Isn't that amazing?? We serve a true living God. A God who is so much more of our problems, worries, depression, studies, loniness, heartbreaks. Thank you God for everything that you've done in my life.

Yeah!!!!!

I'm so happy!!!! Exams is finally over..although I didn't feel that I did well for my my exams..anyway, it's over...we'll just leave everything to God's hands...I'll save the book for you...when are you coming back arr??? The ending is....urmm...cannot tell you lar..read it for yourself. I'll bring back to Kuching. Hey why Harry Porter there is later than in M'sia?? We start screening on thursday..ppl are crazy over it...the whole place it booked for the whole week and we only manage to get the show in GSC one utama at 12.10 am. Thanks to Jason. If not hen we have to watch at TGV sunway pyramid..which su ann and I has already booked the tic. Hey, Planet Shakers come to Malaysia every year...and they didn't publise it that much so I don't know...i was so sad to miss it...maybe I should publise that Delirious is coming to M'sia on 2 Feb 2006. It's organized by my church in conjuction with AYA Festival...cool rite?? And we are taking the afternoon session doing a pre GIG thing. But the bad news is that 2 Feb is on the 4th day of Chinese New Year..i haven't figure out how am I going to tell my parents that I got to leave on like 3rd day of chinese New Year or take the earliest flight on the 4th day then rush to Bukit Jalil Indoor Stadium. Anyway, I kind of had fun today...went to Sunway Pyramid with the whole class after exam then movie with su ann and wai kit. but i kind of feel bad cos I skipped worship practice is campuscity and I totally forgot that I have bible study in church today until Dorin called me, but I already bought tickets for Just Like Heaven. Then Calvin just called and rub it in..guess what he did for his ex-girlfriend during Christmas??? He's such a nice guy...haha.

I finish reading 2 books this year!!!!

I'm so proud of myself...i actually manage to finish reading 2 books so far..ain't you proud of me???Hehehe..that's an achievement..for ppl like su ann, mich, adeline, and sherlyn, 2 books might seems like kacang putih to you guys but it's an achievement to me...haha...maybe I should cont. on cultivate my reading habits...let's see how long it will last or is it just another hot hot chicken shit...wait and see...haha. I still have one more paper to go...can't wait for it...you know, i can't sleep last night...i was so scared and i could feel my heart throbbing...but 2 Timothy 1:7 struck me, it says for God did not give me a spirit of timidity, but of power, love and a sound mind.

PLanet Shakers

Planet Shakers came to Malaysia and I went to the concert for about 5 minutes?? Hehe...I didn't know that they are herethen I saw the poster in Sunway Pyramid while I was there buying present for Betty..then Michelle and I went in there for about 5 min then we ame out cos Mich Koo and Jason were waiting for us outside..but I manage to take some photos of it.

I'm So Scared!!!

My finals is on Monday..which is only 1 day away...I'm so scared..I'm not prepared...and after this what course should I persue??? Hai ya...so much thinking again...my results is definately not good enough for me to do medicine, but that is what I really wanted to do since I'm a little kid...should I do Law?? That's one of my interest too...but there's so much memorizing to be done...can I cope with it?? There's so many questions in my mind...or should I just follow my mum's advice and do BioMed or BioTech?? I do quite like BioMed..but after that I'll be stuck in the lab and mostly do research..knowing me, I'll die of boredom and just by sitting on the chair for hours and hours will just kill me...Why there's nothing that requires you to work outdoor then there's office work too?? Actually is not that there's nothing lar..engineering is like that, but my maths is already so teruk..and still want to do engineering..i'll die while studying..that day during campuscity prayer meeting, pastor ryan asked us to say what do we see ourself doing in the future in ministry...the word community just came..and I believe that God is somehow showing me direction..I see myself working within the community and reach out especially to those who have lower income...In Jeremiah 29:11 it says, for I know the plans that I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and future. I know that He has wonderful plans for me ahead.

Can't live a day without you

I could live life alone
And never feel the longings of my heart
The healing warmth of someone's arms
And I could live without dreams
And never know the thrill of what could be
With every star so far and out of reach I could live with many things
And I could carry, but...I couldn't face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know

I can't live a day without You
Lord, there's no night and there's no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You're the heartbeat of all I do I can't live a day without you

I could travel the world
See all the wonders beautiful to me
They'd only make me think of You
And I could have all life offers
Riches that were far beyond compare
To grant my wish without a care
Oh, I could do anything And I could carry on, oh yes
But if you weren't in at all... Jesus, I live because
You live You're like the air I breathe
Oh Jesus, oh, I have because You give
You're everything to me Oh...

This song is so so nice...it's "Can't live a day without you" by Avalon...i've been playing over and over again till my housemates also cannot tahan..hehe...

The good old days

I was listening to music launchcast on yahoo then Beauty and the Beast was on air...it brings back all the memories I had when i was just a little girl back when i was only 13 years old..the choir practice that we had day and night...the dinner we had in school, competiotion in St Teresa and in Penang..I had a good time back then...those were the days...but after yvonne left, choir has not been interesting and fun anymore...i miss those times with 'kung fu tze' which is priscilla and the other basses..life was so different back then..just a little emo here...anyway, got to prepare for my preaching test tomorrow.

Last day of college

Today is the last day fo college..we had took photos and writing autographs almost the whole day....quite fun, at the end of the day, a few girls cried..but I didn't feel sad at all...surprising huh...I think it's because we here for only like 10 months and I'm the kind of person that need quite sometime to be close with others...so i don't feel sad at all..maybe after i leave, i'll miss adeline and huiru..they are my closest friend. Thanks huiru and adeline for making my life in SAM memorable and for being so caring and nice to make me feel at home when i first came. I'll always remember the lunches we had in Kowloon. Love you guys lots. these are some pic that i took today.

2 more weeks to go!!!

I just realise that I haven't been updating my blog for more than a month....i'm left with 2 weeks till my finals...so scared lar..i haven't been doing much these days..life is still the same and I'm not attached yet..haha...i've been doing like 50 sit ups everyday since wednessday..now my muscle are a bit painful...hopefully i can lot some weight..i guess that's all lar..life is just too boring..nothing to update. take care ya.

4.22 am

it's 4.22 am on a friday morning...and guess what I'm doing right now?? I'm studying!!! I'm actually awake at this wee hour to study...can you imagine that?? The world's laziest person..me amanda tan is actually studying at this time..actually i'm quite proud of myself cos everytime if i plan to sleep then wake up..i'll surely end up sleeping or else i'll wake up and study for less than an hour then go back to sleep..but today..i'm actually awake for about 2 hours 20 min already..it's an achievement...haha...i can't wait for wed..then i can go back home and replenish my sleep..i look horrible now...with dark eye circles and pimples everywhere...arrgh....let's do a few more maths question then go to sleep...

arrgh.....

i'm so bored...when i have so much studying to be done...i think i never change..always like to study at the very last minute. Not that I'm a genius and get good results...why i never learnt my lesson?? Anyway, I went to Cocoa Restaurant last nite with the campus city leaders cos pei teng is leaving for Ukraine this week..so we belanja her dinner...i had a good time with them..it's the first time i sat down and have dinner with all of them..then calvin sent me home but he wants to eat 'tong sui' so we went to buy it. He eats so much...really a lot..i played netball after my chemistry exam yesterday..this month is sports month in church so we have lots of sports going on..i played for the last 10 min and we won!! Yeah!!! but i pulled my tigh muscle...didn't do warm up before i play..i'm going back in 10 days!!!!! Yeah!!! Can't wait for it...

Running On LOw Battery...

I'm running on low bat...means i'm sleepy now...but i can't sleep..i NEED to STUDY!!!!! I have my mock trails on saturday and I'm not even half way done for my chemistry...how to go for exam like that??? Hai ya...I made coffee myself just now...su ann taught me how to make..it's not the 3 in 1 Nescafe k..it's the one with coffee powder then you have to add creamer and sugar urself...this might sound stupid to you guys..but it's some kind of an accomplishment to me cos all this while I never drink coffee and what more to say make coffee...I started drinking coffee last week..cos I've been falling asleep in class..last night i slept at 12.30 and plan to wake up at 2.30 to study..but when i woke up..study for less than half an hour..i fall asleep till this morning...hehe..bet this is not surprising to you..cos it always happen to me...ok, i got to study now.

Alone at home

the flower kind of fireworks the rocket kind of fireworks


This is the merdeka's day picture...we went to Dataran Merdeka for count down...Can you imagine that I actually did such thing??? It was so jammed..and guess what all that went to countdown at Dataran Merdeka were malays...it's not surprising rite..the fireworks were so so nice....really nice...i was standing at the best spot ever...the fireworks were like 'raining' down on me...it's really an experince...they have 2 kinds of fireworks..one like the 'flower' kind and the other was like a rocket. Mich Koo's bf brought us there..having a kl guy as your bf is a benefit..haha...but he's quite blur..he dunno where's the zoo negara...we came back at about 4 a.m that day..went supper after that and Bangsar close so early so we went to Bandar Utama...Bangsar is the place where it's filled with pubs and disco stuff...of course we didn't went there..there are cafe's and mamak too..but they close at 2....anyway, I'm all alone at home today...home alone...hehe...this is the first time I experince being at home alone since i came here...it's quite sad and lonely...dorin, wai zin and su ann went bak to their hometown cos they are having holiday..mich lee went back for the weekend too...and as usual mich koo will spent the whole weekend with her boyfriend...i'm suppose to fill my time with studying and going to church..but i slept till 6pm...i went to play futsal yesterday...this month is sports month in church...so there's a lot of competition going on...i got bruise on both my knees...i was trying to save the ballfrom going into the gol..but too late..they won by 1-0. there's this afican lady in the opposite team..she's big size..bigger than edina (the form 3 girl) and i was running from the opposite direction from her, trying to snatch the ball..she langgar me and i flew and fall...haha..it's serious, i'm not exagerating...then the next game, i dunno how she play lar...she fall on another girl which is smaller than me...the poor girl was squashed...then when she stand up she's a bit blur...hehe..after all, we got 2nd place..not bad arr..ok, got to study.