Can't live a day without you

I could live life alone
And never feel the longings of my heart
The healing warmth of someone's arms
And I could live without dreams
And never know the thrill of what could be
With every star so far and out of reach I could live with many things
And I could carry, but...I couldn't face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know

I can't live a day without You
Lord, there's no night and there's no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You're the heartbeat of all I do I can't live a day without you

I could travel the world
See all the wonders beautiful to me
They'd only make me think of You
And I could have all life offers
Riches that were far beyond compare
To grant my wish without a care
Oh, I could do anything And I could carry on, oh yes
But if you weren't in at all... Jesus, I live because
You live You're like the air I breathe
Oh Jesus, oh, I have because You give
You're everything to me Oh...

This song is so so nice...it's "Can't live a day without you" by Avalon...i've been playing over and over again till my housemates also cannot tahan..hehe...

The good old days

I was listening to music launchcast on yahoo then Beauty and the Beast was on air...it brings back all the memories I had when i was just a little girl back when i was only 13 years old..the choir practice that we had day and night...the dinner we had in school, competiotion in St Teresa and in Penang..I had a good time back then...those were the days...but after yvonne left, choir has not been interesting and fun anymore...i miss those times with 'kung fu tze' which is priscilla and the other basses..life was so different back then..just a little emo here...anyway, got to prepare for my preaching test tomorrow.

Last day of college

Today is the last day fo college..we had took photos and writing autographs almost the whole day....quite fun, at the end of the day, a few girls cried..but I didn't feel sad at all...surprising huh...I think it's because we here for only like 10 months and I'm the kind of person that need quite sometime to be close with others...so i don't feel sad at all..maybe after i leave, i'll miss adeline and huiru..they are my closest friend. Thanks huiru and adeline for making my life in SAM memorable and for being so caring and nice to make me feel at home when i first came. I'll always remember the lunches we had in Kowloon. Love you guys lots. these are some pic that i took today.

2 more weeks to go!!!

I just realise that I haven't been updating my blog for more than a month....i'm left with 2 weeks till my finals...so scared lar..i haven't been doing much these days..life is still the same and I'm not attached yet..haha...i've been doing like 50 sit ups everyday since wednessday..now my muscle are a bit painful...hopefully i can lot some weight..i guess that's all lar..life is just too boring..nothing to update. take care ya.

4.22 am

it's 4.22 am on a friday morning...and guess what I'm doing right now?? I'm studying!!! I'm actually awake at this wee hour to study...can you imagine that?? The world's laziest person..me amanda tan is actually studying at this time..actually i'm quite proud of myself cos everytime if i plan to sleep then wake up..i'll surely end up sleeping or else i'll wake up and study for less than an hour then go back to sleep..but today..i'm actually awake for about 2 hours 20 min already..it's an achievement...haha...i can't wait for wed..then i can go back home and replenish my sleep..i look horrible now...with dark eye circles and pimples everywhere...arrgh....let's do a few more maths question then go to sleep...

arrgh.....

i'm so bored...when i have so much studying to be done...i think i never change..always like to study at the very last minute. Not that I'm a genius and get good results...why i never learnt my lesson?? Anyway, I went to Cocoa Restaurant last nite with the campus city leaders cos pei teng is leaving for Ukraine this week..so we belanja her dinner...i had a good time with them..it's the first time i sat down and have dinner with all of them..then calvin sent me home but he wants to eat 'tong sui' so we went to buy it. He eats so much...really a lot..i played netball after my chemistry exam yesterday..this month is sports month in church so we have lots of sports going on..i played for the last 10 min and we won!! Yeah!!! but i pulled my tigh muscle...didn't do warm up before i play..i'm going back in 10 days!!!!! Yeah!!! Can't wait for it...

Running On LOw Battery...

I'm running on low bat...means i'm sleepy now...but i can't sleep..i NEED to STUDY!!!!! I have my mock trails on saturday and I'm not even half way done for my chemistry...how to go for exam like that??? Hai ya...I made coffee myself just now...su ann taught me how to make..it's not the 3 in 1 Nescafe k..it's the one with coffee powder then you have to add creamer and sugar urself...this might sound stupid to you guys..but it's some kind of an accomplishment to me cos all this while I never drink coffee and what more to say make coffee...I started drinking coffee last week..cos I've been falling asleep in class..last night i slept at 12.30 and plan to wake up at 2.30 to study..but when i woke up..study for less than half an hour..i fall asleep till this morning...hehe..bet this is not surprising to you..cos it always happen to me...ok, i got to study now.

Alone at home

the flower kind of fireworks the rocket kind of fireworks


This is the merdeka's day picture...we went to Dataran Merdeka for count down...Can you imagine that I actually did such thing??? It was so jammed..and guess what all that went to countdown at Dataran Merdeka were malays...it's not surprising rite..the fireworks were so so nice....really nice...i was standing at the best spot ever...the fireworks were like 'raining' down on me...it's really an experince...they have 2 kinds of fireworks..one like the 'flower' kind and the other was like a rocket. Mich Koo's bf brought us there..having a kl guy as your bf is a benefit..haha...but he's quite blur..he dunno where's the zoo negara...we came back at about 4 a.m that day..went supper after that and Bangsar close so early so we went to Bandar Utama...Bangsar is the place where it's filled with pubs and disco stuff...of course we didn't went there..there are cafe's and mamak too..but they close at 2....anyway, I'm all alone at home today...home alone...hehe...this is the first time I experince being at home alone since i came here...it's quite sad and lonely...dorin, wai zin and su ann went bak to their hometown cos they are having holiday..mich lee went back for the weekend too...and as usual mich koo will spent the whole weekend with her boyfriend...i'm suppose to fill my time with studying and going to church..but i slept till 6pm...i went to play futsal yesterday...this month is sports month in church...so there's a lot of competition going on...i got bruise on both my knees...i was trying to save the ballfrom going into the gol..but too late..they won by 1-0. there's this afican lady in the opposite team..she's big size..bigger than edina (the form 3 girl) and i was running from the opposite direction from her, trying to snatch the ball..she langgar me and i flew and fall...haha..it's serious, i'm not exagerating...then the next game, i dunno how she play lar...she fall on another girl which is smaller than me...the poor girl was squashed...then when she stand up she's a bit blur...hehe..after all, we got 2nd place..not bad arr..ok, got to study.

i'm back in kuching!!!!

At last i'm back at home...i miss home so so much....and I've been eating non stop since i arrive...went out with sun, xin yi and her bf today...guess what, i fall asleep while watching bewitched...it's not that the movie is not nice...it's just that i was too tired. I only had 2 hours of sleep..all michelle koo's fault.ask me to talk to her...hehe...calvin and ps. ryan called me today...so happy when i got their call...it's like although they are so busy with GIG, but they still call and ask how was my flight and thank me for helping out in the GIG...i was so touched...calvin wanted to meet me but he mistaken the time...he thought that I'm leaving in the evening..calvin is very funny and always call me by my chinese name...he asked me to buy 'sio bee' for him...i'm just very happy that they call...if i didn't go to campus city and acts church, i dunno what my life would be..maybe i'll end up going shopping every week and do nothing. ok, i'm very sleepy...going to sleep.

me studying...hehe

I'm studing....can you believe it??? HAha...actually I was reading newspaper lar..today is my last day of exam!!!! Yeah!! Can enjoy...but the paper was hard and i don't have enough time to finish it...only 50 mins to finish 5 questions and the graph paper was so cacat...some box small some box big...anyway, it's over..so nvm lar...actually i'm quite happy with my results this time cos I got improvement in all my subjects...but dunno bout physics lar...cos the exam was today...thank you God!!! ANother thing...I PUT ON WEIGHT AGAIN!!! I put on another 2 kg..so in total from january till now, I've put on 5 kg...can you believe it???? I must exercise!!! But always hot hot chicken shit...hehe..ok..i'm coming back next week...can't wait for it...

haze!!!!

Due to the haze, we got no school tomorrow!!!! Yeah!!! so happy....chemistry paper today was so shitty...how can expect us to finish a chemistry paper in 50 min??? So siaw..the paper is 53 marks..and australian says that if that question is 1 mark means you take 1 min for that question..and that sums up that we don't have time to think about it..it's like when you see the question, you must straight away answer...you think everyone can do that?? A big NO No...hehe...

maths exam!!

It has been quite long since i updated my blog...lazy lar...updating my blog just never come across my mind...well in the first place i created this b'cos i was so bored and so pissed off...I GOT MATHS TEST TOM!!!! I dunno whether i've finish studying or not....when i read through..i seems like i know them but when do the questions, some i still dunno how to do...hopefully i'll get good grades for this paper...next weeks will be a busy week..exams, exams and EXAMS!!! But the good news is after all the exams, i'm going back home!!! YEah!!!! The holiday this time seems so long lar...is like I've been here for so long but the time to go back is still so far away....why arr???

Stomachache!!!

Hai....I've been having gastric pain since yesterday afternoon!!!!!!! And now I'm not sure whether it's gastric or not..cos my church friend says that she got friends that thought they are having gastric but end up having appendix....i was so freak out when she told me just now..what if i got appendix??? And my mum or my family is not here..who is going to take care of me?? Who is going to give me support and encouragement??? All this questions came across my mind just now...but now the pain is getting better...if it's still painful tom..I'M GOING TO SEE DOCTOR!!!!! Ok, enough bout that...i did something different last nite..i went to play pool last nite and came back at 11. 15....and you know what?? I can slice the ball...hehe...so proud of myself..but after 2 games, my aiming went from bad to worse and i play like dunno what...and i went to play POOL again today...but only play one game then came back home already...cannot tahan the gastric pain...anyway, take care ya. God bless.

bored.....

Hie ppl....i'm just so bored now...actually I have a lot to do but just so lazy...why i never turn over a new leaf????? I'm wondering.....not that I did very well for my semester exam but still so lazy...just never learn my lesson....haih..i'm working on it..i've begin to revise back my work everyday and try to do some past year questions..amaze?? Haha..actually last nite i was quite annoyed by my roomate...it's wai zin's(my housemate) b'day today and we plan to go out for supper at 11.30 last nite...then about 11.15 wai zin asked whether we are going for supper or not and she say..can we don't go for supper..very tired lar...then of course wai zin say don't go lar....at that point of time i was really annoyed...all of us plan already then JUST B"COS SHE'S TIRED then don't go...that day when it was her b'day...when we were reluctant to do what she asked..she'll use this phrase: "it's my b'day so I demnad" please lar...how selfish....and now she want to borrow my money, she just take it from my purse without asking...how rude..so bo ka si....i'm just so piss with her lar...ok, let's forget bout her..spoil my day only...anyway, i got to watch Holland Village liaw...bye. take care ya..

I've created a hole in my fridge!!!!

I was cleaning up my fridge cos the freezer was all covered with ice...so i use a screwdriver to knock off the ice...it was going on well at first...my housemates and us took turns to knock off the ice...so when it was almost done, i was knocking on it then i terpoke a hole...it was a small tiny hole that you can't even see it...and deng deng...die liaw....the gas started to come out...and it smells....then i started to panic..so i went to tell the guard, and called the mechanic...after that we had trouble to look for fridge to put our stuff...then ask for the guard's help again...so he asked are we staying under taylors..so i said yes...then he said call the college warden so that i won't have to pay a bomb to repair it...then he told me to change the whole story..which is telling a lie...tell them that when we came back, the ice in the fridge is melting and we smelled something awful....so the warden is coming to see it on monday..hopefully the story works..if not i dunno what to do...hehe...

it's so smelly here !!!!! there's rotten food.......been here for 4 days!! CRAP!!! literally CRAB! stupid crab!!! and the owner also stupid!!!!!